THE PASSING OF A LOVED ONE...

Mind and heart don't always agree to work together in an unison purpose to provide balance to the soul. It simple doesn't work that way. Instead, they pull apart in separate directions,contradicting each other. And there you are, perfectly still in the middle, listening to both arguments, contemplating your options. The sensible YOU agrees infinitively with your noble heart while conscious and mind are screaming in warning signs.

I can count many logical reasons, all in a perfect, organized, parallel order that will make perfect sense on why this was to pass, why I shouldn't be sad, why the passing of my step-father 3 nights ago was something awaiting for to happen, nature taking its course. After all we all know, the one sure thing in life we can be certain of its death. He was a 71 years old, diabetic and very ill; suffering from an amputation caused by agent orange during the Vietnam and Cambodia Wars.

And so, I take my long list of reasons which will protect me from sadness and pain. I show it to my achy heart and read it out loud: once and once again. Nevertheless, It only works for few moments. I cant stop feeling sad. I have to try, Christmas is almost here, there is laughter everywhere and I need to smile for me and my family. But for now, I just want to be sad for a little longer.

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Comment by susan chandel on February 21, 2009 at 6:24am: I read this because I recently lost a loved one. Sorry for your loss.

Comment by Abelia on February 20, 2009 at 5:49pm

Comment by Andy Skadberg on January 13, 2009 at 9:55pm: Hi Patty,

I typed a long message and then clicked away and lost it. Today is the 2nd anniversary of me seeing my father in the hospital after he suffered an aneurism. I drove from Texas to Iowa, it took 16 hours. But his spirit was gone - I could literally feel it. Here are some "sharings" that came from the passing of dear ones. Their lives have inspired me, and guided me, that is after I took a look at what they demonstrated. They are not gone - I have learned this truth, without a doubt. As I opened my consciousness to the possibilities of being "eternal" the evidence keeps pouring in.

Here are some links to some blogs that I have posted at my little "collaborative network" called IAmSharing Please join too, if you feel inclined.

To my Father
To my mother
And two posts to my sister Laurie The poem to Laurie

Blessings to you and keep on Sharing, it is wonderful.
Andy

Comment by matahari on January 9, 2009 at 7:55pm: El hombre se descubre cuando se mide con un obstáculo
Si al franquear una montaña en la dirección de una estrella el viajero se deja absorver demasiado por los problemas de la escalada, se arriesga a olvidar cual es la estrella que lo guía

Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Rara la persona que no extraña a alguien querido, mas en días tan señalados. Es la vida. Animos. Un beso.