X-Y-Z Tension Ease... (poems)

of living, feeling freely i flow
through the thousands of you i
find my self so desperate to know
what reason would i have to lie?
and tell you things that never were?
take this all with a grain of salt
an alcoholic sometimes slurs

tantrums bourne of tensions taut
torn and taught by symptoms wrought
iron tossed tears spilledd from third floor tiers
i always feel so distant from peers
what reason would i have to lie?
and tell you things that never were?
all i meant was i want nothing for 'i'
i have an alcoholic's eye
and again at times i slur
my words

i know you want something from me at times
and i truly would like to oblige
but all you ask is far too much
my tension here's sealed with a sigh

for everyone and everything that ever
fell to stupidity, not mental deficiency
disorder debt or anything sinister
just temporary lack of mental proficiency
in appropriately speaking their mind
or strategically biding their time
what reason would i have to lie?
and tell you things that never were?
i just told you i want nothing for 'i'
and that's all there is to my words.