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Life Cycles

trial by mirror

delving deep into myself

forging a story

masterful silence

glinting diamonds of wisdom

appear from nowhere

tentative whispers

sounding off inaudible

to anyone else

firmly spoken words

spewing judgment & disdain

for both you and I

shouted epithets

screaming daggers of insults

at all who can hear

confused emotions

entangling Love & Hatred

in unspoken words

stinging…

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Added by gcool06 on January 16, 2011 at 2:38pm — No Comments

A Bottle of Smirnoff & 40 Pills (poems)



long ago i used to be like you  

until i died i was human too  

but a bottle of Smirnoff and 40 pills  

cured me of all your ills  

i took my own life right around Christmas  

with sleeping pills & some antidepressants  

28 of the former and 12 of the latter  

20 shots of Smirnoff, maybe  

but does it even really matter?  

she called 9-9-9 as i went to sleep

And drifted off into the strangest of…
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The Sistine Chapel (Is it 5-D or 6-D?)

Entering the Chapel

from its rear

as you are supposed

to you walk into

a 6-Sided room

surrounded on all

sides by only Part

of His Life's works

and you See the Story

of this Planet Written

in so many Creative

ways all Around you

its Angels & Demons

its Secrets & Truths

its Love & Treachery

the Five Dimensions being:

above, in front, to…

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Added by gcool06 on January 6, 2011 at 10:30pm — No Comments

You Taught Me

when you taught me to write

you had no idea what you were

dealing with...

when you taught me to drink

i wish you had told me

i didn't have to be so nervous

as you.

when you taught me to eat

it all tasted good, but

i don't want it

anymore.

when you taught me to speak

the first word i said to you

was Light... at 6

Months with my southern drawl

and Country View.

when you taught me to read

you should have begun to…

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X-Y-Z Tension Ease... (poems)

Xerxes Youthful Zeal

An arrogant asshole assumes

Bodily, belligerently and boastfully

Coursing callous comments

Defining deathly deliriums

Excacerbating elemental,

Fundamental fumigations

Granting gilded guidance

Honing heroes habits

Initiating implicit irony

Jacking, jolting & jeering

Killing kilotons of Kryptonite

Lamenting lustful longings

Manufacturing mentalities

Nemesis not needed now

Obvious or…

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Added by gcool06 on December 11, 2010 at 2:30am — No Comments

Cascading Thoughts of Oblivion

quiet, quizzical,

poring haphazardly and silently

through all my experiences,

trying so desperately to find

one among the stacks and tears [sic],

one amidst the jumble,

one that relates to your madness,

your misery and your desire for self-destruction.

whispering, cynical

letting loose with a torrent

of letters tearing through

the fabric of everything you've known,

burning conciousness embroidered

upon your delicate, thin skin,

torching…

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I have waited...

for many years, and now am ready. I still don't know exactly how to say this to you, or understand the consequences of this statement in their entirety, but this is the truth, and i must try to communicate it. i am nothing. i am, relative to life within this grand universe of ours, as important as that bacteria cell which you may remove by washing your hands, destroy by disinfecting, or leave be to evolve as a part of the ecosystem known as your body. we are not alone. there are organisms-… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 2, 2010 at 7:43am — 1 Comment

Is this love...?

Running Circles (for T.S.)



running in circles around myself

looking for a way out of a personal hell

wondering wearily whether it ever ends

if the circle will break, if i'll find my friends

does anyone out there see i care?

can she see through lies made of air?

circles drawn purposefully, fooling even myself

does happiness really lie in wealth?

i don't think so, but i could be wrong

this path back to M.E. has been long...… Continue

Added by gcool06 on November 22, 2010 at 1:38am — No Comments

Nature's Stare

you see me before i see you

you walk up close, so you can be near me

slowly, tentatively- eyes on me

watching, wondering, worrying what



you stop- just out of reach- eyes locked

still, timid. finally i turn around

to notice you there, waiting

gazing, worried still what



i stop smoking for a moment

to turn around and stare back

i know you don't like it when

i move too fast. i turn... gradually



squared, eyes locked only… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 25, 2009 at 4:30pm — No Comments

Re: Kenn-Aid-ian Dreams - Lost In Place, Not In Time (VI, VI, VI x 3)

in a Kenn-Aid-Ian Dream

i see ahead of me

the words i wish

to wear to lead

you where hearts care

lucidly lending Love

faith, help and health

familiar with family

all around

this place

not here

somewhere else

where hearts care

freely-

Manchester, Lancaster, London,

St. Helens, Glasgow, Dublin,

Toronto, Ontario, Alberta-

a place where

people wear a healthful

care

for hearts are

and hearts… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 14, 2009 at 4:30pm — No Comments

Societal Indifference

Society is, I will is, I am diabetes

(I will make it)

Through stone and age

I am the result of the cause all natural

Are you? Be not the result of the cause...

Be "diseases"

(Television, video games, alcohol, etc....)

That supposedly

And only supposedly

Not supposedly

Only

Plague

Is

OUR SOCIETY

They are the aftermath of frequency

Frequently over-indulgent

In evil

Evil IS

I am S.A.R.S.

You... I.. I… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 14, 2009 at 1:30am — No Comments

Filing Away...

sorely missing someone unfamiliar

last i knew her, i was her teacher

forever ago, it seems, but only a few years

all blurred together by multiple beers

for the most part; vodka, some wine, too

and i forgot to mention i was sober a few

months- twenty, precisely- thanks mostly

to nearly losing it all and amidst insanity

finding me- girl, dream, job, even (nearly)

gone for a bit to get the help i needed

clarity coming back-… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 13, 2009 at 4:33am — No Comments

Poetry In Motion

walking now- slowly.

tentative, tense...

feeling my way..

along. in the cold,

it's hard to feel,

so i look.

at night,

it's hard to see,

so i listen-

loosening up,

i pace myself

more appropriately.

leaves crunching

comes faster-

open road ahead

accelerating, aloof

alternating- attentive.

breaking into a

run i start to

feel. cold air

rushes past as

lights ahead pose

against… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 12, 2009 at 1:42am — No Comments

A Writer's Insecurity

pouring my past out onto paper

with due regards, i'll finish... later

wasting time applying myself

cigarettes in between, wasting health

wondering and worrying worthlessly

whether all of this is just pointless

writing, that is- pen in hand-

or if i just run some kind of scam

believing that others want to read me

i think if they do they may just see

a way to avoid winding up like this

stuck, waiting- i wasted all of it

the job, the… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 11, 2009 at 12:00am — No Comments

Relapse [Pt. XXi]

Morning ‘Fix’



tourniquet taut, trapping air

blocking escape, breathing impaired

speaking shakily in early morning

before i drink. my family warning

wondering why i would do this to them

or myself, for that matter, why i don’t stem

this disaster- i can see it looming

so i take a drink- when drunk it’s roomy

trapped here, alone, in this vicious pattern

by my own will, daily being battered

beaten and broken- how do i get myself… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 9, 2009 at 10:30pm — No Comments

A Memorable Escape [Pt. XX]

through every story encountered

whether spoken, papered,

digitized and / or illustrated

based on 'reality'

or entirely fabricated

any story IS these three things:

what it says, what it means

and what it means to me

if language comes from Nothing

and everything- in fact- the same

then we have Nothing

but our stories and memories

this 'reality' of story & memory

is what we must escape

by returning to them- to

our… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 8, 2009 at 7:30am — No Comments

A Health-Full Reconsideration... [Pt. XIX]

Intentional Evasion of Purpose (I.E.P.)



razing landscapes

taking hostages

an homage- here is to

paper-cut pirates

profiting pointlessly

pandering tirelessly

to congress

this prophet portends

annihilation

dangling the fine print

of fine edges

as we teeter perilously

tottering, tormented, tortured

pained

pointed phrases

provided pragmatically

purpose:

to stitch pharmaceutically

unnecessary… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 7, 2009 at 7:30am — No Comments

An Addictive 'Reality' [Pt. XVIII]

Indoor Motion Sickness



though it may seem to you my hands move with a quickness

i swear i'm coming down something fatal- a sickness

not from H1N1 swine flue... no... but it feels something of that nature

i am certainly no doctor, so i could not tell you the nomenclature

i believe it comes from being trapped- inside- no fresh air

i see home, but where is dad? on to his next meal? i don't care

hypocrisy is all i feel- i look around; he's drowned-… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 6, 2009 at 4:30pm — No Comments

Working Overtime [Pt. XVII]

Committed #2 (Tsch's Number)



one last poem before i go- i feel home already, so...

leave me your number- i will call you back sister

friend, i AM your brother and me being here a show

committed of my own free will so drugs no longer blister

burn, destroy, decimate, DE-animate- so breathe easily

seldom do you find anything except in the last place you looked

though dragged away twice in handcuffs, i came here freely

only if life is enjoyed… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 5, 2009 at 7:30am — No Comments

Confused, Country, Rambling [Pt. XVI]

Hopeful Hallucinations



simply saddened- solemn

somewhat singed- seared

suicidal? helpless? no...

homesick, heartbroken..

hearing and seeing.

things that aren't...

if you saw what i did,

would you want to see

something else that

isn't here? words?

worlds? action?

do you think?

do i care?

do you care that

I see things that

aren't here... yET?

things that are

there, just- just

out of… Continue

Added by gcool06 on December 4, 2009 at 7:30am — No Comments

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