About me.... share a little of my life 3!

There is many people who has died and friends who has died... i realize that i have ruin more than my own life...!
I have helpt 2 friends to part up theire heredity after their dear parents..... one of this friends are dead now.
I was the cause he became with out home... i borow money of him and i could not pay them back ehrn he needed them as most... so he became with out a home,the land lord throw him out on the street"the land lord dident care about him.. he just say.... this is what happends when you dont pay the rent ashole".
I remeber the words like it was yesterday!!
I start to burn all the bridges i got... i was guilty money to so many..... so one night when i was guilty wrong persons they look me up and gave me 24 hour to fix money or they gonna kill me.
i became desperat ... i did know that i habe a friend who parents had alot og money,i went to my friends house ( he was living at the parents house )...i was a little high on drugs and he notice that but he let me in because he trusted me " wich he not should done that time " any way we sat and talk over a cup of coffe and he had to go to the bath room for awile... i knew that his parents had a safe in the house!
I walk in to the room where the safe was, It was open it was OPEN !!!!!
I walk forward to the safe and WOW there was the key to my life... i dident think of my friends or his parents... i took the money and just run the hell out and away from my friend!
i belive i was around 19 years old when i did this... my friend was a friend to me ONE LAST TIME..... he dident turn me in... he keep it in his mind and never ever talked about it and he never saw at me again after that!
Now .... was it time to ruin next home.... the say they have housebreaking... but the incurance did not cover the money i took... the safe was open so they dident get the money back ( now i sit here and cry )
...... this is to horrible.. this memory.... i can not do anything then cry just now!
My friend and his parents lost theire home cause of me... the saving (the money) was to the tax and to the last payment of the house and property.... the bank kick them out " o my god... this is difficult and tough" of the house theire home they have work so hard for.... theire life.... they lost it all because of me!
Iy was so many time i promise that i should stop and take care of my life... i failed so many times so nobody NOBODY belived me at 1987 when i say"NO MORE".... but i did it i quit wiyh drugs and if we dont have drove of the road in august same year i had straight up my life already at that time.
But the desteny have other plans for me!
Under the year as junky one guy died instead of me...this guy had deside to kill me... he pull the knife at my throat ( i was 17 year) but before he cut a friend came and they started to fight and they guy feld on his own knife and died!
we have never spoke of thir since then.......
Here i am today and share my life with you my new friends and people on this site child within!

Regards Kenneth Alfsson