Chapter Eight: "Self Discovery"

Chapter Eight
SELF DISCOVERY

Self Discovery begins rather innocently with a question asked
by Wisdom of each of us “who am I”..From where whom and
what place do I come..From where do my questions begin there
original flow..Do they rise up or descend from what distant room
Within my heart my spirit and my mind I must know..

What part of my body or my soul is the source of this origination..
What point from without or within..Do my questions begin inside
of myself ..Or emanate from a detached isolated source..That is either
or neither foe nor friend ..?

Who or what being approaches my mind and heart..Then quietly
calmly enters without knocking..To put the daily load of my
Questions there..Is its real essence derived from..Or driven by
my insatiable curiosity..Incessantly relentless in its probative
nature..To find out the who the what when why and the where..

Is it good to have a deep and abiding passion for Questions and
Answers.. Launched from so deep within the Spirit of our Heart
our Mind and Soul..By whom and for what reason does each
found answer reward us..By drawing us into and somehow
propelling us ever closer..To each of our individual life’s defined
or undefined goals..

Is it Wisdom’s job to challenge every Human life 24 hours a day..
To find out and measure our inner Potential..To answer our life’s
many Questions..Then grades and determines our effectiveness
in solving Our daily Life's Problems..Rewarding us with a deeper
level of understanding..Gleaned from or not gained as each of us
moves..The accumulated thought luggage of our lives along our
own individually chosen way..?

Why do Humans with there great diversity from other Life forms
and Eco-Systems..Exists and co-exists interconnected as we are
all sharing in the same place and space..Who are the real members of
My true Family..What precise unseen circumstances or forces were
the primary factors..In determining my own ethnicity date of birth
cultural heritage and race..?

Before one can descend climb traverse or conquer any particular
obstacle..No matter how deep wide high or low...Before one can
understand the outer or inner boundaries of infinity...Ones curiosity
thirst and desire for greater knowledge..Must forever burn with a
flaming white hot intensity...Consuming all life’s varied Questions
amid it’s energetic dissipation..Using each consumed spent answer
as a provided fuel source..Helping to maintain its persistent radiance
and intense glow..

In order to meet Freedom face to face..One must travel beyond the
outer edges of its confining floors ceilings and walls..Before one can
even begin to approach..The truest realm and home of Wisdom...
One must learn to hear it’s haunting voice’s faint whispering echo...
in every questions irrepressibly persistent call…Who am I really ?

In my early days as a child many difficult questions dominated
my mind as a youth..In the realm of human understanding true
answers were sometimes very slow in coming..so began My
journey to find the home of Wisdom.. Where I knew I would
also find Joy Pain..Understanding Frustration Knowledge Grace
Mercy and the Living Truth…

I knew that I would have a very difficult journey.. But I had to
continue no matter the Price nor the intense heat of the mighty
flame...For it is better I suppose to chase after Wisdom and
pursue Truth incessantly..Than to be captured from behind or
within...by ones own inner Evil Ignorance and Shame...

This work consists of many very different Chapters...I hope each
helps you to think of more questions...for I am convinced life
answers and solutions are truly the ultimate valuable prize...For
if we are to overcome the many barriers..and many obstacles we
face as a Divine People...If we remain bound and trapped...By
Our own stubborn undefeated ingrained Ignorance..Our failure
and Our Children's frustration...Will only continue to increase in
substance complexity scale scope and size....

For a man or woman cannot truly begin the journey to know Him
or herself..Until he or she recognizes the unseen image and true
essence of Our Living Creator..Hidden away in the darkness or light...
of the life of him or her self first.. Then recognize this greater Spirit
and its true inner Promise and Power Hidden within each and every
one else...

For in every Life bearing human vessel...Whose Heart pumps
the sacred blood of life within..Each and everyone of us has
the chance to impact the lives of others negatively or positively..
Of those we consider either Family Foe or Friend..

Yet what is the very essence of true Power..Was its first by-
product manifested in Humanity in the individual’s enabling
of this Power of Choice...To decide to do or not to do...Why
do these many silent questions dress conceal and disguise
themselves..In such sheer seductive thought garments that
appear to have no shape form or voice..?

We listen at their relentless whispered suggestions daily..But
not to hear...We think about them..react..but do not speak..Yet
they are resolutely determined to influence modify or shape our
behavior..The strong among us become thought selective..While
others poor unthinking decisions make their lives fundamentally
unsound..Allowing some to become vice or crime receptive..Yet
in others some become mentally unstable.. Later their Family tree
becomes somewhat infected by this evil..Making each affected
member sickened morally ethically and spiritually very weak..

Some of these now weakened leaves fall away..Others begin to dwell
among the inner demons hidden within themselves unseen..Silent
among the Shadows...As the Human host now begins to sink and
further retreat deeper into the poisonous grip of their many vices..
Becoming bound to move around..Always seeking the concealing
dark cover of the night..Some choose to embrace or reject their
suggestions of evil..Only to recoil or rejoice when approached by
the rays of Truth’s intense glare..With it’s all penetrating and all
illuminating Light..

Daily these mighty Spiritual titans constantly clash..They jockey
for true mental dominance in each moment of our lives every day..
Yet to the wise they have no true power in our minds..Until we act
on their thought implants..Or behavioral suggestions made to us..
Each and every moment of each tested day..in our own separate ways..

Daily they hurl at each of us the temptation of their relentless often
unsolicited suggestions..Should I do this or that...For every negative
or positive decision we engage.. Does the overall effect of each of our
cumulative decisions and reactions..Ultimately determine where ones
eternal soul...Eventually will find its true place to reside at…

Yet even from the very beginning of all human time..True spiritual
enlightenment has its originating point of genesis from deep within..
For without the infinite Love of Our Living Creator..Love of Oneself
Ones Family Ones Community and Ones Humanity..Ones journey to
find Oneself..Can never ever truly begin.. So where does One begin
such a truly daunting journey..?

Is there a nice spiritual road map available to guide one safely
along the way..Is the first place one has to gain control in the
province of the mind and the heart..Then conquer the thoughts
which eventually control and reflects..The words that ones mind
and voice will later have a need to choose select and put into play...

I began by offering thanks to My Living Creator...known to
mankind’s many cultures and various ethnicity's by many names…
Known to me as the One Living Creator the Most High..The
most Perfect of all Beings....Whose wise words rekindles daily
the spiritual fire..Which hourly sustains My Life’s eternal flame..

I thank him for truly being My Mentor and Number One Role
Model...for The Opening of My Inner Spiritual Eyes..For soon
allowing me to be able to see the Beauty of the Distant Horizons...
To be able to just give thanks for each and every day I am allowed...
To just have the privilege to see the coming evening..and the dawning
of the new morning sky...

What a blessing it is to see the colossal clashing of the Spiritual
Titans..As their ethereal forces.. Conflict daily as they prepare
to do battle in the war for the ultimate prize of a Human Soul...
who inadvertently shape daily by their constant pitched battle..
do influence and mold..Our day to day decisions...as we struggle
to define and achieve our daily life Goals...Many blessings to all
who work the fields and orchards..For the Fruits of Understanding
Wisdom Love Truth Hope Knowledge Brotherhood Unity and Peace..
May the Light contained within all these blessings..Guide your feet
home safely..In all that you choose to desire and someday seek..

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Miami, FL
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