I was not aware of it.

When I was 14 my mother separated from my father, only about a year later, she brought home a new man, someone I didn't like.

I started drinking heavily, staying out all night lived manly at a friend's house.
Later I took other drugs, and this has made it complicated for me to fit in with society. I have also had mental illness.

How much is because of the separation of my parents, I don't know. But I remember denying it being a problem at all. Now, as an adult, I can see that it did change my life a lot, not the least that I stopped my music and exercise classes and my interest for school and knowledge almost disappeared, along with my confidence.

There is no point in being angry at all this, but today the problem still grows: both parents have new partners and they both set off in one direction each, which ends up with me being pulled into two halves. i wish to come to terms with, how to live my life without being so affected by my parent's lives. I would like to hear from other people with similar experiences, how they found ways out of these problems. I am over thirty, but i still feel like I am five.