I joined this group in 2009. Since then I have written nothing. Today, I received an iPeace email and decide to open it up since 2009. It's part of my pattern of opening up new doors and not committing myself to the bigger picture.
There was an old message I received from someone talking about fear. This was perfect because this morning, I felt fear running through my body. Anxiety overload and a desire to reach out for a drink at 10:oo in the morning consumed my thoughts. I just began a new relationship and we are so close in spirit. But then, like in any other relationship I have been in, I started to fear that I will lose him. I feared the distance in our long distance relationship will drive him away from me and there is nothing in the relationship that tells this. I feel in adequate of living my own life without him now and I am becoming more dependent on him. Is this what relationship addiction is?
I am the only person that needs to realize my own potential in this life to be confident and be my own shining light. I feel stuck.
Is there anyone out there who can help me realize where these feelings are coming from?