I think I have graduated.....

Its been almost a year since I walked away from my daughter's father with her and my son from a previous relationship. He did so much mental, emotional, and psychological junk to all of us. Used finances against us also. I worked with a woman's shelter here in town that helped us to leave and I did, successfully. During all this I maintained my faith in myself and followed my path, never strayed. Through all my tears I have maintained who I AM.

Last week I had to go back there. Not to his house but right next door because our daughter had a birthday party to go to. He was at work so he of course could not take her. I had a headache before I left and when I got home.

While I lived there, I created a beautiful garden for butterflies and roses on all four sides of the house. Its so overgrown, so ugly. I do not miss living there, I miss nothing there except for the flowers and plants.

I made my son come with me just for support even though I had many spiritual friends with me. I made it clear to her father, when he came home I had to go, as my son had to outside of town in a few hours, which was the truth for his martial arts class. All worked out, all was okay.

As I left the birthday party and my little girl in the care of her father, I was told "you did good". It was very hard to be that close to the house where so much pain was created.

Since then, I haven't had much quiet time to address how this has made me feel and I need to so I can move on from it.

Her father does love her and is learning not to use ploys or manipulations but its a work in progress.

And I continue to channel and receive the messages that are for me and to be shared at the same time, and I learn so much and see so much, and the tears want to come....they will when I have time to myself.

I know I did the right thing, I would do it again, but sooner if I had to go back. I stayed there for 6 years, watched my young (oldest child) son go from happy go lucky into thinking he wished he was dead. Now I have my son back and my daughter sees sometimes what her dad is, she is too young (only 6). But she is wise as all children are.

I am feeling lifted for sharing this here. We (the 3 of us) will be celebrating in a few weeks - our freedom.

Love all of you