To live our lives in our own echo.

Where the emptiness goes in replay.

Where you if you lips out something high and often enough, believe you have created a truth. In an emptiness in which only the surface counts. An emptiness in which all spiritual substance, is reduced to a minimum.

Where life is an over-painted cracked facade which we through verbal ”hocks pocks” try to look like new. An illusion by which we succeed in deceiving many, and thereby strengthening our false self-esteem ..

The echo of our own emptiness seeks to create the filler that never existed. It polishes and polishes the ego which is false. Man beats his chest and no one else can hear how it oaks empty. In the black hole in which grief has its stronghold and the tears has frozen to ice.

”Who am I” ? Cries a desolate voice, with increasingly weak voice. The noisy superficiality and the consuming nothingness prevents us to hear the answer.

”Move on ... move on ..” Call the voice that never was we.…but which was and who still is the survivor’s deputy . We obediently follow that call.

”Do not stop ... do not stop”, then everything will catch up with you.

Yes it is perhaps the fear of the soul's silent emptiness that makes us choose to live our lives in the echo of ourselves.

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Comment by erika on October 12, 2009 at 11:09pm: so true..

Comment by gunilla caisson on September 13, 2009 at 5:48pm: A warm hug to all of you who dare to look your emptiness in the face and deal with it...*smile*
Maybe those with an extreme Belief in God do not hear this echo in the same way...since this "empty room" has been filled with just God...
Just a reflection...

Comment by gunilla caisson on September 13, 2009 at 5:41pm: To Kenneth and brian it seems as must of us are struggling with the emptiness that create echo.
It may echo for different reasons, sometimes we do not even know why .. Just that something is forcing us to move on ... you both you know what is haunting you ... your "empty room" has an alibi for its echo .

Someone had added this song in a blog post on "The Child Within" today
I listened to it a while ago .. and I`m still crying ...
Now I will play it for you...it makes the soul good ... maybe just because of the tears it provoke...

Comment by me on September 13, 2009 at 2:42pm: i like 'echo' better when it is sonar - at least you can get 'pings' back - so you know a 'presence' is near you (when on a submarine)

but - - being a survivor (of incest, molestations from strangers) has always left me with the 'echo of EMPTYness' the VOID, the NOTHING, the HOLE

this VACUUM in the body, mind, (soul) - i can not fill - not yet anyhow -

- not even with Discovering on my own that I have a inner~child

now today this new 'ECHO' topic here is reverberating much within me : (

so I question (and have in past too) - is the inner~child really REAL . . does the little boy in me REALly EXIST ?

or is it my only way to endure and survive so I can live ?
Otherwise suicide may be the new eternal echo-ing

I know this 100% TRUE for me --> I want to be a little boy __ I want to be the CHILD __ I want to be in CHILDHOOD

I have not achieved this - for how is it possible, or probable, to make the ECHO of one's CHILDHOOD to be made aNEW (to have again BUT WITHOUT ABUSES) ?

I dread the horror and afraid so much that I AM the FAILURE of just being (existing) as a old body in the FIGHT OF MY LIFE with MY MIND NEEDING to be the LITTLE BOY CHILD and feel safe and loved.

I keep thinking of my death - it is becoming more emminent (due to the pain spreading) But I KEEP RESIDING in the Echo-ing of daily CHILDLIKE thinking and its my only HOPE

Reality is Truth, so I know I only age more and the bodies ailments is going to conquer and take over so the life journey has to lead to death anyway

I wish it already occured so I crossed over the lifeNdeath thingy part of eternity

maybe after this body will be the ECHO of before biologically born __ will it be safer? happier? healthier? or is it just knowingn nothing?

I watch children in movies on TV (cable) to keep attempting to relate to them so I can have THEIR life in sharing how THEY are . . it takes me away from the NOTHING WITHIN me . . the black hole

little brian inner~child is a reflection of me in that HE IS A SOMETHING while I FEEL LIKE A NOTHING

I keep little brian safe, while I live in a UNSAFE WORLD of so much cruelty and despair.

I do not belong in this homosapien life. It has been too much drudgery.

I may have used the inner~child as a form of ESCAPE-ism all these decades

at the same time I protect this child from what the real body and mind has been through

the healing never has worked

and in the echo-ing dark hole of NOTHING is also feeling dirty from the monster dad and bad men

their bad upon me has been echo-ing over and over

echo eChO EcHo ecHO ECho EchO eCHo

it is torture

very sad

: ( :o(

little brian cries inside me

Comment by gunilla caisson on September 13, 2009 at 12:35am: I wish I could help you to carry your burden annie...*smile' But you are not living in an echo of yourself, you are living close to you feelings, which means that you also get hurt, but still i think that that is the definition of just living.
But the feeling of emptiness when we give out too much and don´t get enough back will always be there...
Have to find the right approach to that hurtful fact.
And now I´m tapping one your shoulder annie and asking what can i do.?*smile*
I do not like to hear that you feel like a "fragile cracked egg shell." ..Soon you will see the light in the tunnel...
I know .. something good is waiting for you so stay open...