James's Comments

That is possible, but no one ever quite speaks the language of someone else.

Hi James,
the world is full of wonderful things,
I hope you'll enjoy many of it today

Ayra

pl. add me friendship list

"It is very important to generate a good attitude, a good heart, as much as possible. From this, happiness in both the short term and the long term for both yourself and others will come." - His Holiness the Dalai Lama

Hating the world in general? It depends in what sense you mean. I have some pent up anger, as we all do, which hardly translates into my being hateful.

Closure? I am just beyond burned out feeling like people use their emotional states to trap me.

Brother James

From my perspective, it feels like emotional blackmail. Sometimes people experience intensive pain and mood swings, and I cannot begin to understand how difficult that must be, and understand that you have had to struggle in a lot of ways, but perhaps due to inherent limitations in my own personality, the extreme highs and lows, and the feeling of somehow always being vaguely responsible is simply sharing an illness. It’s weird and it’s creepy. I try to be friends again with you and within 24 hours, you are expressing strong emotions that make me uncomfortable . I don’t really want to have private messages or public messages with you. I admit to my responsibility in sharing a great deal of the blame, and I should have drawn lines earlier and stuck to them, for your own good as well as everyone else’s, but personal issues might have clouded my judgment. I don’t admit to sole responsibility. I get incredibly pissed off that I am even in a position where I have to be dealing with you or any of this—especially on the internet. I don’t know how I can be anymore clear about my position without getting personal. I don’t understand why you don’t just admit something is unhealthy here and move on. I also don’t think it is fair for you to unleash your own personal problems on everyone else around you. It is most likely demoralizing, although I understand that some people are more sophisticated in handling the emotional reactions of others. However, I am not into this drama.

I know. wb.

Actually no need to explain. I read your comments on Laura's page. You can not allow your frustrations to control your sense of well being. You have to allow things to flow naturally. Laura, you need to make whatever position you have clear and stop messing with his mind. This is no way to live. James, you really must learn to let things go. I know it's hard, but driving yourself crazy is no solution. I suggest the two of you TALK.