Tell Me You're Sorry Tomorrow

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Comment by Irit Hakim-Keller on October 18, 2008 at 5:30pm

Dear Videha,
It is so very touching....
I hope that saying "sorry" , and to forgive even the dead ones, make the heart beating easier, make soul being free, make the person a better one.
Much love to you. May you never know sadness again.
Peace and light
Irit

Comment by videha on October 18, 2008 at 1:38am

I HOPE YOU WILL UNDESTAND MY BAD ENGLESH , I SPECK GOOD , BUT I CANT WRITED. THANK

Comment by videha on October 18, 2008 at 1:33am

WE MUST FORGIVE AND ASK TO BE FORGIVE .EVERYONE WE REMEMBER . I STARTED DOING FEW YEARS AGO WHITH SOMEONE WHO CAME IN MY MIND , I MADE MANY PHON CALLS AND THEY WHERE SURPRISED BY THAT , BUT THE LAST ONE IT HAS BEEN MY FATHER , WHEN HE DYED I DID NOT GO TO THE FUNERAL , REMEMBERING ALL MY CHIDHOOD , WHEN HE BIT ME WHITH HIS BELT , FROM THE AGE OF 6 UNTILL I LEFT HOME AT 15 , BUT I REALIZE THAT I WAS GOING OUT EVERY NIGHT AFTER SUPPER AND COME BACK AT 12 OR 1 O'CLOK , BECAUSE HE WAS AN EVANGELIST , THE ONLY ONE IN MY LITLE TOWN , SO I DISCOVER THAT OTHER BOYS WHERE LIVING DIFFERENTLY
FROM US , WE SHOULD HAVE TO DO ONLY WHAT WAS WRITTEN IN THE BIBLE , EVERYTHING ELSE WAS VANITY , HOW CAN I ACCEPT THIS ONCE I DISCOVER A DIFFERENT WORLD , BUT HE WAS BORN IN 1912 , AND EVANGELIST , I COULD NOT EXPET NOTHING MORE , BUT I CHILD DONT THINK , JUST LIVE , PLAY , HE DOSE NOT THINK OF THE MOTHER WHEN HE IS OUT ALL DAY LONG , OR WHEN IS NOT COME BAK HOME FOR FEW DAYS ... AT THE AGE OF 17 MARRIED THE FIRST TIME AND MADE A COMUNE, BUT BEFORE BEEN CALLED FROM THE ARMY SERVICE I JUST LEFT ALL AND EVERYTHING AND GONE TO LIVE IN AMSTERDAM , AFTER 10 MONTH I WENT TO INDIA AND SHANGRI LA OVERLAND WHITH FALSE PASSPORT , AND THAN COME BACK IN A'DAM AND SO ON , IN MY 3° TRIP TO INDIA I MEAT OSHO , BUT STILL I WAS NOT ARRIVED ANY WHERE , BUT HOME.
... THEY DID NOT KNOW ENYTHING OF ME , ONLY AFTER MANY YEARS I DECIDE TO GO BACK AND I WAS IN MILITARY PRISON , AFTER THAT I WENT TO THE ARMY AND ONLY SEE MY PARENT AND BROTHER AFTER ALL THIS .... I COULD NOT LIVE IN ON TOWN AND LEFT AGAIN, CHANGE TOWN TO TOWN , TRAVELING AGAIN IN INDIA AND THE USA , FROM JAPAN TO ALASKA I HAVE BEEN ALLMOST EVERYWHERE , ALSO IN ISLAND UP NORTH AND VIRGIN ISLAND , SHREE LANKA , NUBIA ETC ETC , I STOP NOW TO WRITE MY BIOGRAPHY AFTER HAVING BEEN MARRIED 2° TIMES , HE DIDENT WORK ANYWAY... NOW IL LIVE IN THE MOUNTIN IN FRONT OF THE SEA WHITH MY "FIANCEE" , SHE IS BLIND TOTALY SINCE 12 YEARS AND WE BOTH ARE 50 YEARS OLD . I REALIZED OF MY FATHER DEAD ONLY 4 YEARS AGO , I CRYID FOR ONE MONTH EVERY DAY , I WAS ALONE , AND THAN I DECIDE TO WRITE HIM A LETTER AND PUTIT IN THE EARTH WHERE HE WAS BURIED, I DID SO , BUT IN THE LETTER I WRITE THAT I FORGIVE HIM FOR THAT MUCH VIOLENSE HE HAD TOWARD ME , ONLY ME, NONE OF MY BROTHER AND SISTER HAS BEEN TOUCHED, AND ALSO I ASK FOR HIS FORGIVENESS
... BECAUSE I NEVER OBBEY A FATHER... NOW I GO VISIT MY ILLUMINATED MOTHER FEW TIMES A YEAR AND CALL HER AT THE PHONE, SHE IS 87 , WERY FREE AND DOING ALL BY HERSELF , BUT I WILL NOT LIVE HER FOR LONG TIME, NO MORE , NOW I AM A MAN ... THANKS Videhanand