Professor angelicus's Comments

I will be looking for you in my dreams as the stars twinkle overhead.

Mahalo for the invite. For sure we are kindred spirits.

Thank you for your kind words. Same to you!

steuben is a long but beautiful ride up the coast on a summer day from here. I am 1/2 hour north east of Portland.Steuben is way down east beyond acadia national park. I went thourgh there on my way to campobello island.. where you can see whales right off the coast jumping in the bay of fundy

Oh and I forgot about the horse!

He got out last night (I did a more thorough job 'tracking' his trail), aparently wanting some of the green grass just starting to show up here right now.
Found very little, then came to stand right outside next to where I sleep, and I did not show up, he got scared, went looking for me, could not find me, snorting most likely trying to "call me" and I did not respond, so he went out to the road trying to find me, and if I did not come out sooner, likely would have headed for town trying to find me.
As soon as I came outside and called him (whistled, he was at a good distance down the road and running so I'm glad he heard me) he calmed down, and came right to me, then jumped back in when I told him to.
He was scared, he was scared he was here "alone" and that I was gone, when I just asleep, but must have woken up by him being right next to me outside the wall I was sleeping against.
No bear tracks nor moose tracks, he just got out and got scared I was not home.

Hey no problem Professor, glad in any way I can help (spirits know... how often I can use it myself also!)
I got back online here (trying to clean up my place for my wife coming home tomorrow after gone nearly 2 years), and I have something related to your situation too I've never told 'anyone' about, where the spirit came to me so strong one day it literally dropped me to my knees... telling me not to sell my property "no matter what" and to wait for this person I had dreams of my whole life... that story in part is in the painting early morning dreamer on my page here.... but when my sons life was clearly on the line and I could see it clearly he would NOT live through what was going on if I did not move and do everything in my power to "get him out of there"....
It was my sons life, or sell that place, so I sold it..... because like your son, family to me means "everything"...
And I too was torn to shreds when young and 2 children and she filed for divorce....(as was almost a trend in the early 80's and she being a trendy person..............) I can understand all to well, how often the pain of dying, seems like nothing compared to the pain of living, without my own children...
But what I have so often told to my elders with Alzheimer's who are in such pain when they cannot even remember the names of their own children, or that they ARE their children, and talk of wanting to die....
If we turn off the TV before the movie is OVER,
We could just be missing, a very very beautiful ending.....

That, has kept me alive,
during many a time, I no longer had the heart to keep living.....
And its true too, when I look back on all the beauty and love I would have missed,
had I taken 'that' path, during those times, when I felt life itself was already over, but I was still just here....
To see past the tears is often not an easy thing to do.
Living past them, even harder,
but, time has shown me, its quite very much so,
worth it.
For the love my children have shown me all these years?
And the love from my wife these last 10 years?
Not only what I would have missed,
but what they too would have missed.......
We dont know until this movie is over,
it true ending....
that is often far more beautiful,
than our faith in its current course may lead us to believe possible!

Ok, I've had 1 cup of coffee (technically awake but not 'officially' until after 2 cups ;)

I walked my horse's trail from last night looking for griz moose or other sign, and if a griz was on my area he chased it off (my horse attacks griz, not kidding, but that attitude may have kept him alive when he was 'wild' before I got him).
The volcano near me is acting like its ready to blow up again, but neither that nor the earthquakes we get a lot of here seem to phase him very much at all. He will act up a lot, around 12-24 hours before we get high winds here and does that on a really accurate and regular basis...
I have not asked him (not that awake yet) about your situation with the hawk(s) and pheasant, and not sure how to go about doing so yet, even after 3 years I'm still not very good at 'horse' enough to know how nor want to confuse him with my attempts (he would get upset if he could not understand me).
I'm not real great at "interpreting" things, though I once was before the trauma S.S. put me through and I fought to suppress what was once something fluent with me to be on 'their' level (which I found to be quite literally insane) in order to try to communicate with them in terms they could understand since they made no effort in the least to understand me even when talking in straight flat out English.
I had visions during the Gaza situation of one (of 2) who was sent there for that (lasting peace) who was killed, but said it, 3 days before it happened... and did much the same with the earthquake in Italy but could have sworn it was S. Calf. but then saw on a map the location, and it matched what I saw in my vision...
Saying all this because yes I do get visions and often extremely clear and accurate but due to my past, I have a hard time understanding them "clearly" enough to say them "clearly" so I only "sort of" am able to do this and certainly not as well as I did before S.S. destroyed my life/family and a large degree some of my sanity (still in recovery).
My "thoughts" here,... one is that I dont 'know' if reincarnation is real or not, I have no personal memory of ever being here or any other planet/life prior to this one, though I DO remember with extreme clarity, BEFORE I was within my mother, where I came from.
So it could be (I neither believe nor disbelieve) that the spirit of your son is one of those hawks, with a mended heart who has found a partner, and wishes it to be known to you (the nest "right there"/feather/bathtub incident).
Or could also be "through" one of them, as in, not him, but as with my son, a shared awareness.

re: Native American, I am only about 1/16th, and dont really see myself as being Native American because of it but see myself as a white person (I am of mixed decent, of all nations, except Australian and Asian).
But much of what I know about living in the wilds, came from the spirits of the ancestors of the North American Natives - who came to me, as teachers not through animals, but directly as the spirits of their ancestors, and as Chief Joseph said (I read later) that they were in the whispering winds of the pines and the sparkling spring waters, there is a lot of truth behind those words because they are still, very very much, still here (and I am very indebted to them for their help as my teachers).
But I do agree with you, you should be the one directly, to ask Hawk yourself, and be open to what the answer(s) may be... which may not come yet, it could take time.
But I would be very searchful, of the spirit of those hawks, to see if there is a reflection of your son in one of them, either directly or indirectly (as a shared awareness).
But again too, there could be someone else here on this site who in reading our posts, who could shed light on this that could be right before us, we are not seeing clearly.
While I can speak in the common language of life with many animals, this is not something I can do with every animal, they too need to be open to doing so (it goes both ways). I know wolf really well, and in that case the willingness to communicate is not something that is so strong a necessity, I'm fairly certain enough I can speak to them and be understood clearly, and beyond that its up to them if they wish to communicate 'back' just like saying "Hi" to someone, I could get a smile, or be ignored, depending on the individual.
But what is going on with you and these hawks (I "think" the pheasant maybe a past tense issue that was a bit of a warning of what was to come) is something personal with you and them or one of them, you should seek out, though I would not advise you to also not seek the advice of others in this.
Again, interpretations are not something I'm real accurate with after the S.S. incident, so please take what I may have to offer in my reflections with this, with that in mind, that I'm aware of my inablity to be accurate while I'm still trying to heal from my life (way of life/home) being destroyed.
I'm getting better but its taking years...

Its hard to move forward, looking backward?
;)

Uh Professor?
I was sound asleep, its 10 minutes before midnight here in Alaska, and I have no clues why I got up...
But the first thing I did was to turn on my computer from standby and then refresh my page here, and the screen centered onto your message on my page.
"While" I am reading it, my horse who has been in his round pen the whole winter, jumps over his fence, runs out to the driveway, races snorting back and forth a few times (getting me to look outside to realize he is not IN his round pen) then heads to the road and races down it at full gallop snorting as if a griz were "right here", so I grabbed my rifle just in case, but there is no griz nor moose nor anything else....
So I whistled to my horse running back down the road about ready to head for the highway, and he stops, turns around and back to the small foot trail he just passed, runs right at me, then past me and jumps back into his round pen again, totally calm, turns around for me to pat his neck.
And I came back in here to see about answering your post on my page........ not sure how to.... but I want to and feel I should really think about this, and perhaps answer it in the morning?
I dont usually get these kinds of messages or questions on my page, nor often do I have others ask me to "interpret" such events for them.... and not sure that I am qualified to do so, without being there and talking with the hawks to get any answer that they may have, straight from them.
I do feel something is wanting to be communicated here, via your encounters, and I've little doubt something that is beyond just "us" if I am to take into account my waking up in the middle of the night for no apparent reason, coming right to your message on my page, and while reading it, my horse does what he just did.....
And what ever it is, its LOUD.... in wanting to be said if these are related, and I'm finding it difficult at this moment to just dismiss this chain of events as coincidence.
Again I'm not often asked to "interpret" in this kind of a way, without direct contact, unless, thats what I just got a dose of?
Please let me think on this one, and to be honest, thats something I dont think I should have to do (to have to think about it at all).... so because I have to, I'm not sure I'm the one who should be called into this to provide the correct answer, but it may be meant for someone else to try explain this to both of us.
Your free to post this on your page in case someone comes along, drawn to it, the same way I was just drawn to your question.
I don't always have answers, and when I don't, I wont make one up to fit the situation, I just tell the truth, or if I don't have the answer, will say that truth also.
And right now I dont have an answer, I by may by morning, and after some coffee is in me.
But would really like to think this over to see if something 'jumps out at me' like my horse just did from his pen.

Afloat in the sky's, my son was learning the art of merging with other life,
his spirit danced in the clouds as he unknowingly held the hand of windwalker,
guiding him towards his spirit brother who was open to sharing the world through his eyes.
Silver hawk was an old spirit, well acquainted with taking the young on this journey,
so I let them go off together, to dance the skies of youth and ancient eyes combined,
feeling the sudden shifts of updrafts, circling to gain their power and height with the world spinning below growing smaller and smaller as if to take my son to the stars spinning above them.
Then they DOVE, straight down through a cloud and out the bottom to curve in a graceful power arch back to the sky, wings shuddering with the power of the speed, only wing tips needed, to do sharp rolls, while like a bullet or a missile, curving back and forth in a S pattern....
my son told me after his journey (not so sure I'd believe him or take him seriously, because he did not know I was watching from a distance,,, he was after all, my son...) that he felt like his stomach was still up in the sky someplace, and wondered when it would return....
It was one of the few times my son started off on his own, yet was not alone, for in his learning to care about other life, opened the door of his heart, that they too, could connect with this caring and share a world he had never been able to touch on before.
That is what your words on my page brought rapidly to my mind,
thank you for triggering that memory, it was a very good time, for my child,
and for a father, to know, he knew.

Hey welcome to my friend's list professer. My daughter's sweetheart is spending the spring here. He is from the burbs of Philly! I have no idea where point pleasant is. I have only been through PA a lot and visited Philadelphia once breifly.

Thank you for the friendship request dear professor...happy to accept! I agree about the root of problems being fear. Sounds like a wonderful book! I think you'll enjoy hearing and learning about 'WE ARE ONE - A World Anthem". To fully appreciate all the recording represents take a few moments to read the "anthem story" and view pictures of all the people we recorded. It took us thousands of hours to produce this one song. Wishing you, and everyone the ever-present love that lies waiting beyond all our fears!
Blessings,
Kevin
P.S. I think you might enjoy learning about the World Unity Day initiative, and the "Declaration of World Unity" petition, too. The group link is on my page.

Hello Professor Angelicus, have an an peacefull week, peace and love for all planet!!

Ivy and Ziggy had returned. Ivy, fascinated by the Professor's words asked, "What's Quantia, Professor Angelicus?"
     "Why, Quantia is the Rainbow Planet. You could say it's in the center of the universe, in the flash between moments of time and space. It was created out of water and light, at the very place where the light meets and shimmers off the water. Some of us call it the Land of Sparkle. You can look into the windows of Quantia from here. You can see it from almost anywhere, if you look hard enough."
     "We can?" cried the children, "How?"
     In a gentle voice, he pointed: "Look at the sun sparkling on the river. Look at the dewdrops glistening on the trees. Walk through a puddle of rain, and when the sun comes out, you'll see it! You can even see it in the eyes of your fellow earthlings when they laugh!” And with that, he let out the deepest, heartiest laugh the children had ever heard, and his eyes began to twinkle like a thousand blue stars on a clear winter night.